Inadequate

I am inadequate. I am inadequate but this God, my God, tells me I am perfect. I was made for this moment. An almighty, wonderful, beautiful God tells me I am made for this moment. He died and rose again and He has made me adequate. His grace is enough. I recognize my inadequacy daily and daily I am reminded that I have been made adequate. I am good enough for Him. He died and rose for ME. Whoa. WHOA.

Today I got to hang out with three boys who I have babysat for over eight years. The youngest is 6 and I remember the first time I got to hold him as a baby. He was, and still is, so sweet and so pure. However, today, as a 6 year old with 2 older brothers, he decided to tell me that he knew every single cuss word and the first 2 letters of every single cuss word. Using my "teacher brain", I was trying to think of something creative to tell him, something to make him NOT want to even think about cuss words..but my brain froze, and my first instinct was to laugh. So...I laughed. I thought, "What in the world am I going to do when I am a teacher and some kid starts explaining to another kid all the different cuss words?" I don't have a clue what I am going to do. Maybe pull them aside and explain to them how those words are inappropriate, maybe tell them that they are not to be used in my classroom, maybe explain the disrespect within those words...I don't have a clue. I am inadequate in many areas in teaching. BUT, I am a continual learner. I will always be a continual learner. I will rely on the strength, wisdom, and counsel of the Holy Spirit. I will rely on Him always. I pray I will rely on Him always. The Holy Spirit blows my mind to pieces and I am beyond thankful that He is within me. He makes me who I am. I am who I am because of the Holy Spirit. All I can do is praise. All I can do is ask for His wisdom, His guidance, His understanding, and His patience. Praise Jesus that we all have access to these things! The King of the UNIVERSE has granted us, me, access to His awesome power. Wow. How sweet it is to be loved by Him. How sweet it is.