Open Hands.

One of my favorite parts of the day is my drive to school. Outside it's quiet, still, dark, and filled with time to myself. Sometimes the music in my car is loud and I am singing along, other times my mind is loud, and still other times I find that I am just listening. Yesterday was a day of listening.

As I was driving I thought about situations at school, my Dad in the hospital (who is healing quickly - praise!), and the billions of dreams inside my head. All of which led me to a vision of open hands. Not my open hands, but the Lord's. His strong hands. I was reminded that not only does He take our right hand and go before us, with us, and after us, but He also holds all of life's situations IN His hands. So then free will came to mind. He gives us the right to choose freely - in all aspects of life - yet still His hands are open. The Holy Spirit led me to this conclusion - it takes an aspect of trust to really place all of life's situations in His hands. Do I really, truly trust all of my life in His hands? When my heart is hurting or worrying and I start to question or doubt, do I really, truly trust? So I grappled with these thoughts and came to another conclusion.

Why would I not?

His character embodies all things good. He is the way, the truth, the life. He says, "I AM" and that is enough. I want nothing more than to place all of my life into His hands because He is "I AM." He is perfect in power, love, grace, mercy, kindness, goodness, patience..."I AM." In this I trust.

Father God. You can have the things I doubt, the things I worry about, my hopes and dreams. You are perfect and I am humbled that You would care so much for each aspect of my life. I ask for Your desires to be traded with mine, that I would live humbly at the foot of Your cross, wanting nothing but to sit at Your feet in Your sweet Presence. Let my life be a pure reflection of You so that others could come to call You Father as well. In You I trust.

Amen.