Rest.

I don't really remember driving to school this morning (sorry Mama...). My brain felt foggy, eyes felt heavy, and coffee wasn't working. Exhaustion. It's not like I went on crazy adventures this past weekend, which would have made for a better story, but I have come to the conclusion that my body just needs rest. Pure, simple, rest. The sleep kind of rest and the spiritual kind of rest.

To rest at the feet of Jesus. This is what I need, this is what I have, with discipline, daily. Resting at the feet of Jesus produces peace and hope. A peace coming from the Holy Spirit and hope coming from His Word. When you rest all things fade away for a moment. Your body slows down (literally) and your mind is quieted and rejuvenated. Rest.

As I rest in Jesus I see a picture of hands letting go of reigns, the weight of the world lifted, and chains broken. It's not about me when I rest in Jesus. Nor will it ever be. I am but a backstage worker in His show.

As I rest in Jesus my fears are traded with confidence, unrest is traded with peace, and my heart is filled with a Love that overflows. As I rest in Jesus I don't have to worry about what's ahead and don't have to worry about if I am fulfilling the calling He has on my life. I don't have to worry because He says, "I AM". The Maker of Heaven and Earth, I AM.

As I rest in Jesus I find Divine purpose and a desire to want to do what He says to do daily. Yet, sometimes I find myself feeling overwhelmed. It's daunting to know the many different directions I could be led, yet not know a single one of them yet. What's my calling? What happens next? Lord, is this Your will? These questions are daunting.

I read an article this afternoon that correlates perfectly with these overwhelming thoughts.

"It takes an extraordinary amount of discipline and maturity to live in today, walking step by step doing whatever I'm supposed to do today. It takes discipline to say "I don't know." It takes faith to trust in one-day-at-a-time. It requires me to lay down my desperate, freakish desire for control and trust He is at work.

He knows the reason I was made. If I walk in step with Him every day I will walk into the reason. Maybe I'm here for something big and meaningful, or maybe I'm supposed to pick up rocks so the tractors don't break.

My "calling" is every day." (Relevant Magazine)

Lord, help me to live my calling every single day, to be present, and to share Your Name every chance You provide. Help me walk in step with You. Thank you for calling me Yours.

Amen.